When I wear my fisiocrem hat the main thing I’m asked is, “did Hamish and Andy give you that ‘crap’ hat?”
(Obligatory laughter) “No”, I reply.. “I’m actually a fisiocrem Sponsored Athlete.” This exclamation is quickly followed by a purple ticket tape parade with a marching band playing ‘Don’t stop believing’ by Journey. Oh wait, that’s just how I imagine it in my mind. A girl can dream right?
It’s actually met with a very exaggerated head nod of approval. I have been blessed with some amazing gestures over the last few months. Becoming a sponsored athlete for fisiocrem has been a massive boost of confidence.
In a world that is jumping on board with body positivity and ‘real sized’ people I’m thrilled to be seen as an athlete.
By no means am I saying my body is a healthy example. I’m saying I’m a positive example that someone can decide to change their life no mater what their size is or what they want to achieve. For me it’s a marathon one day.
How awesome is it that fisiocrem have bestowed the title of ‘sponsored athlete’ on me? How amazing is it that someone may look at me as a role model? How lucky am I to be given a soapbox to share my achievements? How epic is it that I am on a mission to run a marathon and fisiocrem and many others believe in me? I tell you what I think. I think it’s one of the best things to ever happen to me (and I’ve been to Disneyland 3 times hehe).
I may not look like your typical athlete training for a game or race but I am sure as hell working just as hard.
So I bet you’re thinking. Who is this chick? I’m Jessica, I have 2 kids and a wonderful hubby. I’m also morbidly obese (like T-Rex trying to do up their own shoelaces kind of obese – it’s hard).
I was a very active teenager, I played regional/state level Basketball, Netball, Tennis and I loved representing my high school in any sport possible – football, softball, badminton, volleyball, swimming, lacrosse and athletics (you name it I was there).
After high school came more study, travelling and life. I couldn’t find the time to fit in sport and the weight piled on. After two kids my weight skyrocketed to 198kg at the end of last year! I had been through many years of yo-yo dieting. But I would always put the weight back on. I knew I needed a new game plan this time.
Fast forward to the start of 2017. Something had to seriously change. Instead going on a ‘diet’, I shifted my goals to wanting to become a marathon runner (no easy feat at a starting weight of 198kg). Why? I wanted to set a goal that wasn’t necessarily weight loss orientated (obviously losing weight is a bonus).
I wanted a goal that I could put out there and start working away at it and feel like I’m making progress (versus feeling deflated on my failing weight loss journey). The marathon journey is going to be long, the marathon is many years away but I know I will get there.
I’m proud that my children will get to witness Mummy achieving a goal she worked so hard for.
For too long I was using my kids as an excuse that I didn’t have time to go out and be active but now I schedule the time, otherwise I won’t be here at all. I am forever grateful that my husband is so supportive and encourages me to follow my aspirations. I am even thankful he gets all my stuff ready, literally dresses me and pushes me out the door on those days I would rather not go for a run or to the gym. Best support crew ever!
I started with Parkrun in January, I didn’t tell anyone I was going in case I backed out or left the course before finishing the full 5km. That first parkrun was mentally and physically hard. I was so lucky to have so much encouragement from all the regular parkrunners. I’ve now completed 15 parkrun’s, completed the ‘For Fitness Sake’ challenge which was 50kms in 10 days and now I’m attempting to do 10kms at Run Melbourne in July. I’m also doing ‘Run Down Under’, every run I do gets added to my tally and eventually (virtually) I hope to have ran around Australia.
To anyone wanting to get out there but are too scared to- I know how hard it is to get out there and try better yourself, I know that the prying eyes of all those watching is overwhelming and I know how much the (intentional/unintentional) remarks can make us never want to go out and try again.
It’s easier just to stay home and avoid it all. BUT my advice is to ignore that one person that may give you a horrible look in public because believe me, you’re being watched silently by many others and they admire your bravery. They admire that you’re doing something to better your health. Your dedication to not give up has triggered their thought process, ‘if they can do it. I can do it’.
That’s what I hope I’m doing, paving the way for those too nervous to try. Just try and keep trying.
Yes it’s hard, it most certainly hurts but I would rather be in pain from trying to be active then be in pain from just sitting around feeling sorry for myself.
On the good days I picture that marathon finish line and on the bad days I wipe away the tears and rub on fisiocrem (please note DO NOT put fisiocrem anywhere near your eyes or the tears will come again).
The training continues. Watch this space.